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May. 27th, 2013 08:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lykomancerI have entered some quietly beatific Zen calm. I am the eye of the storm, perfect stillness in the middle of chaos.
We're moving. Packing things up and living in huge piles of boxes and unsorted stuff and donate heaps. We're calling the landlord, the utility company, the internet company, family, the landlord, friends. We're cramming vans full of boxes and doing three loads from one address to the other after work. We're juggling finances. Trying to remember what we need and what we already have. We're working. I'm still studying algebra; Jinya's jogging.
I recognize that I should feel stressed. In fact, I should feel frustrated and short-tempered and emotionally exhausted.
I don't though. I don't really feel anything but calm and mildly pleasant. Easy-going. Unfazed.
I think that living with depression for so long-- struggling against the burden of it-- strengthened my emotional "muscles", as it were. (Hahahaha, my metaphor just makes me think of Rock Lee and his weights, but that's exactly what I'm talking about.)
We're moving. Packing things up and living in huge piles of boxes and unsorted stuff and donate heaps. We're calling the landlord, the utility company, the internet company, family, the landlord, friends. We're cramming vans full of boxes and doing three loads from one address to the other after work. We're juggling finances. Trying to remember what we need and what we already have. We're working. I'm still studying algebra; Jinya's jogging.
I recognize that I should feel stressed. In fact, I should feel frustrated and short-tempered and emotionally exhausted.
I don't though. I don't really feel anything but calm and mildly pleasant. Easy-going. Unfazed.
I think that living with depression for so long-- struggling against the burden of it-- strengthened my emotional "muscles", as it were. (Hahahaha, my metaphor just makes me think of Rock Lee and his weights, but that's exactly what I'm talking about.)
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Date: 2013-05-29 12:45 am (UTC)RockBoulder of emotional stress?...Sweeet.
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Date: 2013-06-07 12:46 am (UTC)