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Aug. 5th, 2013 02:31 pmFeeling a touch melancholy.*
Kind of wish I was dating someone. Not in the practical sense. I don't actually want to deal with someone else and their issues. I would, however, like to feel desirable again. Not physically desirable, but mentally/spiritually. Most days I don't feel like I've ever known anyone who's really loved me (romantically), but even if I assume that's not true, it's still been over a decade since someone was interested in me as a whole person.
I am unwanted. And that feels harsh.
*I can't complain much though, since this is the first down day I've had since I started my meds.
Kind of wish I was dating someone. Not in the practical sense. I don't actually want to deal with someone else and their issues. I would, however, like to feel desirable again. Not physically desirable, but mentally/spiritually. Most days I don't feel like I've ever known anyone who's really loved me (romantically), but even if I assume that's not true, it's still been over a decade since someone was interested in me as a whole person.
I am unwanted. And that feels harsh.
*I can't complain much though, since this is the first down day I've had since I started my meds.
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